Advice to become a better dancer...feeling like a failure

by Marina Einstein
(Los Angeles, California )

Hello my name is Marina Einstein. I'm 15 years old and I dance 18 to 26 hours a week. I'm a good dancer but I dream to amazing like Tate McRae, Payton Johnson, Lucy Vallely, and so many more. I feel like a failure for I work soooooo HARD in my classes and talking to teachers after class on what I can work on. People have told me that I'm the most hard working person they met. My notes on my phone are filled with corrections and I have journals filled with them. But I haven't been improving to the amount of hard work I put into dance. It drives me crazy because I used to be a bad dancer 2 years ago and I had one realization and it shaped my thinking and training into becoming a good dancer but ever since then I feel my growth has been stagent and I feel like I'm expecting another crazy realization so I get much better again. Any advice?

Also I have a horrible memory. I'm ona competition team and whenever we rehearse or preform I'm always the one that messes up (staging, timing, and forgetting chreo) I practice my dances a lot so I was thinking maybe it's a mental thing or the way I practice?

Also I'm such a slow learner when it comes to everything and choreo. I'm always the last person to understand direction. I hate it. Any advice for this as well?

I feel stuck into the life of always being JUST a good/average dancer I try so hard for I WANT more than this life and I want to be AMAZING AND STUNNING, please help me.

I feel like AMAZING dancer's just start off amazing because that's the way their bodies naturally moves. I have never heard of an AMAZING dancer who started off okay/bad and became amazing starts!
- Marina Einstein